BLACK MONDAY
Many thanks to those of you who have offered such nice words both on and off blog.

The decision was made tonight that we are done done.
He had ended it 3 weeks ago, but we continued to be in contact near daily.
We even had a date last week that felt wonderful. Sadly, he sees no future for us.

So now I do what?
In 3 weeks I've lost over 10lbs, days of sleep and my two years past kidney pain has returned.
What do you do when you feel like your legs have been cut off?
Not only have I lost him, but M as well.

I just don't understand.